Of a nervous breakdown......Seriously, please tell me that I am not the only one who is experiencing or has experienced the worst case of terrible twos/almost threes in the world!!!???!?!?! This is just cruel and unusual punishment, especially for a preggo momma! Don't get me wrong, I absolutely with all my heart love my daughter and would do anything in the world for her but I find myself getting really really mad and almost resenting her at times and that kills me. (side note: I do suffer from Depression and Anxiety Disorder if you haven't read through my blog) I don't want to be mad at her, I don't want to punish her, I don't want to yell at her but nothing seems to be helping! I just want her to listen to me and be that sweet little girl that I know she can be! I have basically tried everything I can think of and she just continues to not listen and have these HORRIBLE tantrums and fits anywhere and everywhere! Currently I am the mom with the screaming child that you can hear on the other side of the store! Which is why I have been MIA at the store lately! I have been having small anxiety attacks lately and I know they are due to her behavior and the stress that it is causing me. I just cry and cry and cry....I cant even control that anymore......I'm honestly starting to question my ability to raise two children. What have I gotten myself into? Why would I think I can handle this? When will she calm down? How soon can I start my meds after the baby is born..... :-) lol (I know those will help out tremendously!)
I'm just gonna ask that you all say a little prayer for me that I survive this. Hopefully once I have the baby and my hormones aren't all whacked out and I can start my meds again I will be able to handle her a little better...... if not I'm sure you will hear me cry about it some more...That's what a blog is for isn't it?? :-) Maybe I will get lucky and she will grow out of it by the time she is three, even though everyone I have talked to has said that three is worse then two....if that's the case then I'm doomed!
Until later.......6 weeks until my due date, hopefully Nathan arrives sooner!