I fell in love all over again tonight.....
tripping, jogging, having seizure like movements running in July of 2012. I couldn't jog 20 seconds to save my life. If I was being chased I would have totally gotten caught before I even started running! At 280 lbs, running was pretty much a joke to me, something I never in my wildest dreams would have imagined myself doing. I remember feeling like I was going to die the first time I decided to run on the track. I remember feeling very accomplished after I was able to run for 30 secs straight without stopping. I also remember telling myself that I WILL run a 5k before I turn 30.
I started the C25K program all by my lonesome and hit the ground running. I struggled through the first week. I struggled through the second, third and made it to the fourth week. Then my sister wanted to start so I went back to the beginning again! I noticed a significant difference when I started over. I was able to get through the weeks a lot easier that I did before. We made it to Week 3 and then Winter came along and it was too dark and too cold to run outside. BOO! My Running was cut off. And I started doing other things to work out, lose weight and get healthy. But that little pest called running kept creeping up in my head and I found myself actually MISSING it!
When I am running I honestly don't think about anything. I don't even need music, even though I normally listen to it. I take in my surroundings, I leave all my stress at home, I leave all my schedules, crazy baby tantrums, depression and bi-polar, mommy carpooling stuff all at home. And I just run. I run until my legs feel like they are going to buckle, I take a break and I run again. I am not fast. But I am running and I love it.
Let's skip all the way to the end of last month when I got my new baby! My new treadmill! Since then I have made significant progress not only getting myself back to where I was, but improving!
Can you believe that I, Steph the girl who has always been the big girl, the girl who never ran EVER, the girl who has 100 lbs to lose, would be running for 3 and 5 minutes straight at a 4 and 5mph speed!?
When I began I was walking a mile in about 35-40 minutes. Tonight I shaved 10 seconds off my previous PR and did a mile in 15:50, 9 of which I ran!
To say that I am excited would be an understatement! I CAN not wait to get back outside and show the road what I am made of! I can't wait to kill the C25K and I also can't wait to join my Girl Jen in Nov in Chicago and run my official 5k!
I pushed it this evening and went for my first walk/jog outside since before Winter but since it was a windy 39 degrees I didn't get very far very fast! But, I am ready!
Tonight marks the night that I fell in love with running all over again! And I have come to the realization that I am a Runner.
Until Next Time...