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I am Steph! I am a 30-something mom and wife. I am Bi-Polar. I am an Autism mom. I work full time outside the home. I overcommit myself every single day. I sometimes wonder how my husband puts up with me on a day to day basis. I have 2 children, one neuro-typical and one not so neuro-typical. I am a hot mess. I am Steph.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Tonight I fell in love...

I fell in love all over again tonight.....

with Running.

I started tripping, jogging, having seizure like movements running in July of 2012.  I couldn't jog 20  seconds to save my life.  If I was being chased I would have totally gotten caught before I even started running!  At 280 lbs, running was pretty much a joke to me, something I never in my wildest dreams would have imagined myself doing.  I remember feeling like I was going to die the first time I decided to run on the track. I remember feeling very accomplished after I was able to run for 30 secs straight without stopping.  I also remember telling myself that I WILL run a 5k before I turn 30.  

I started the C25K program all by my lonesome and hit the ground running.  I struggled through the first week.  I struggled through the second, third and made it to the fourth week.  Then my sister wanted to start so I went back to the beginning again!  I noticed a significant difference when I started over.  I was able to get through the weeks a lot easier that I did before.  We made it to Week 3 and then Winter came along and it was too dark and too cold to run outside.  BOO!  My Running was cut off. And I started doing other things to work out, lose weight and get healthy.  But that little pest called running kept creeping up in my head and I found myself actually MISSING it!

When I am running I honestly don't think about anything.  I don't even need music, even though I normally listen to it. I take in my surroundings, I leave all my stress at home, I leave all my schedules, crazy baby tantrums, depression and bi-polar, mommy carpooling stuff all at home.  And I just run. I run until my legs feel like they are going to buckle, I take a break and I run again.  I am not fast. But I am running and I love it.

Let's skip all the way to the end of last month when I got my new baby!  My new treadmill! Since then I have made significant progress not only getting myself back to where I was, but improving!  

Can you believe that I, Steph the girl who has always been the big girl, the girl who never ran EVER, the girl who has 100 lbs to lose, would be running for 3 and 5 minutes straight at a 4 and 5mph speed!?

When I began I was walking a mile in about 35-40 minutes. Tonight I shaved 10 seconds off my previous PR and did a mile in 15:50, 9 of which I ran!  

To say that I am excited would be an understatement!  I CAN not wait to get back outside and show the road what I am made of!  I can't wait to kill the C25K and I also can't wait to join my Girl Jen in Nov in Chicago and run my official 5k!  

I pushed it this evening and went for my first walk/jog outside since before Winter but since it was a windy 39 degrees I didn't get very far very fast! But, I am ready!

Tonight marks the night that I fell in love with running all over again!  And I have come to the realization that I am a Runner.  

Until Next Time...


  1. You ARE a runner Steph and I CAN'T WAIT to run the Hot Chocolate with you in Novemeber and cross the finish line together. You have come so far since July and I am so happy your love of running has sparked again. Spring is here girl...time to bust out butts!!!! So proud of you!!

  2. I so needed to read this! Thank you for sharing! I just started C25K this week! I want to be able to run in a "real" 5k in 12 weeks! I feel like it's impossible! I have never ran a day in my life. After losing 120 pounds..I really want to fall in love with running to..so we shall see! :) Miranda

  3. You are awesome Steph!!! So proud of you! Keep up the awesome work my friend :)

  4. What a great post! So happy for you!! :)

  5. We were definitely on the same wavelength yesterday! That's so awesome! Good for you! :)

  6. Steph, you inspire me! After reading your post, I feel so motivated (and I am sure that wasn't your intent!!). You have given me the "pat on the butt" I need to do better! The fact that you are doing this by yourself, without anyone "helping" you along and pulling/pushing you shows what a strong and driven woman you are. Honestly, I am in awe. Being healthy and changing your lifestyle is NOT easy for anyone...kudos to you for giving it all you've got (while working full time doing the hardest job in the world..Mommy). They say you should "surround yourself with people who will make you better...." Thank you or doing that for me without even knowing it!!!!
    You are going to blow this 5K out of the water...:) Run Forest, RUN!!!