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I am Steph! I am a 30-something mom and wife. I am Bi-Polar. I am an Autism mom. I work full time outside the home. I overcommit myself every single day. I sometimes wonder how my husband puts up with me on a day to day basis. I have 2 children, one neuro-typical and one not so neuro-typical. I am a hot mess. I am Steph.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Fat Girl Problems: My Journey from Fat Girl to Runner

If you have followed me from the beginning you will know that I am of the 'chubby' body type....well....more like 'Fat' and obese, but chubby sounds better! I have always been the 'Fat girl' and up until now I can honestly say I was kind of ok with that.  I have learned to just accept myself as being overweight and being known as the fat girl.  I often made jokes about it and I basically just dealt with it.  I figured that I met the love of my life while I was fat and he loves me just the way I am so it didn't really matter to me.  And, some how I had managed to keep myself pretty healthy internally!  I even shocked my Dr when she did all kinds of blood tests and everything came back normal and fine and not life threatening at all so I didn't really think it mattered what weight I was at.  Well, the time has come where I need to make some changes, like 100lbs worth of changes....  I need to do this not only for myself but for my kids and for Leif.  I don't want to be that fat girl anymore.  I want to be able to do things that other moms can physically that I can't. And more importantly with Cady getting older and going into Kindergarten where I plan on volunteering and getting involved in her school, I don't want to be an embarrassment to her.  I don't want her to not want to introduce me to her friends or the other moms because she is embarrassed of how I look.  I want to be accepted and not have to make jokes about my weight just to make myself feel better and sugar coat the fact that I am fat.  

With that being said, I have officially started the Couch25K program!

I have pretty much led a sedentary life with little to no physical activity other than chasing my kids around or shopping for hours (which can be tiring!) so this has been a shock to my system!  I have slowly started walking at the high school track down the road from my house, I started with about a mile and quickly moved onto 2 miles a couple times a week but I needed more.  I knew in my heart I could do more so after some research and reading some inspirational stories from other runners (That's you Jen!) :-)  I decided to take the plunge! 

The first day my sister and I got to the track ready to start things off with a bang!  We thought, jogging for 60 seconds, Hell, that's nothing!  BOY were we wrong!  She did better than I did because she is much for active than I am but I was pretty sure I was going to die after the first 30 seconds into the first jog!  I don't know how I finished it, but I did.  I will admit that I walked some of the time I was supposed to be jogging but I am proud of myself for actually getting through it and not quitting.  I came home that night and took the coldest shower I have ever taken and laid on the couch the rest of the night until I drug myself upstairs to bed!  The next day I was pretty sure that I broke my knee!  This girl could barely walk after all that jogging! (Fat Girl Problems!)  Well, I took a few days off to get my knee back in shape and guess what?!  Tonight I finished day 2! Again, I barely made it and was pretty sure that I was going to die more than once, BUT I DID!  And I lived to write this blog about it!  

I am going to continue to share my journey if you guys will help hold me accountable!  I have not done much to change my eating habits yet, but I have started drinking WAY more water than my bladder can handle so that will come in time!  Right now I just need you guys to help me keep on going.  I need you to remind me that there is light at the end of this fat girl tunnel and that I hopefully will come out being a little bit lighter on the scale and hopefully running my first 5k by the time I'm 30!  

Thank you all in advance! 

Until Next Time....

1 comment:

  1. Steph...I simply CAN NOT WAIT to follow you on this journey. Running is not the hard part. Anyone can run. DETERMINATION is the hard part. Finding the motivation to get up in the morning, and even though you are dog tired, you still get your bootie to that track and make your run/walk happen. The couch to 5K will feel hard at times, but I promise you that the feeling you will get running your first 5 minute stretch...and then soon 25 minute stretch...will make it all worth it. I am so proud of you girlfriend. I can't wait to follow along and be your biggest fan :-)