Fat Girl Problems: My Journey from Fat Girl to Runner

If you have followed me from the beginning you will know that I am of the 'chubby' body type....well....more like 'Fat' and obese, but chubby sounds better! I have always been the 'Fat girl' and up until now I can honestly say I was kind of ok with that.  I have learned to just accept myself as being overweight and being known as the fat girl.  I often made jokes about it and I basically just dealt with it.  I figured that I met the love of my life while I was fat and he loves me just the way I am so it didn't really matter to me.  And, some how I had managed to keep myself pretty healthy internally!  I even shocked my Dr when she did all kinds of blood tests and everything came back normal and fine and not life threatening at all so I didn't really think it mattered what weight I was at.  Well, the time has come where I need to make some changes, like 100lbs worth of changes....  I need to do this not only for myself but for my kids and for Leif.  I don't want to be that fat girl anymore.  I want to be able to do things that other moms can physically that I can't. And more importantly with Cady getting older and going into Kindergarten where I plan on volunteering and getting involved in her school, I don't want to be an embarrassment to her.  I don't want her to not want to introduce me to her friends or the other moms because she is embarrassed of how I look.  I want to be accepted and not have to make jokes about my weight just to make myself feel better and sugar coat the fact that I am fat.  


With that being said, I have officially started the Couch25K program!


I have pretty much led a sedentary life with little to no physical activity other than chasing my kids around or shopping for hours (which can be tiring!) so this has been a shock to my system!  I have slowly started walking at the high school track down the road from my house, I started with about a mile and quickly moved onto 2 miles a couple times a week but I needed more.  I knew in my heart I could do more so after some research and reading some inspirational stories from other runners (That's you Jen!) :-)  I decided to take the plunge! 


The first day my sister and I got to the track ready to start things off with a bang!  We thought, jogging for 60 seconds, Hell, that's nothing!  BOY were we wrong!  She did better than I did because she is much for active than I am but I was pretty sure I was going to die after the first 30 seconds into the first jog!  I don't know how I finished it, but I did.  I will admit that I walked some of the time I was supposed to be jogging but I am proud of myself for actually getting through it and not quitting.  I came home that night and took the coldest shower I have ever taken and laid on the couch the rest of the night until I drug myself upstairs to bed!  The next day I was pretty sure that I broke my knee!  This girl could barely walk after all that jogging! (Fat Girl Problems!)  Well, I took a few days off to get my knee back in shape and guess what?!  Tonight I finished day 2! Again, I barely made it and was pretty sure that I was going to die more than once, BUT I DID!  And I lived to write this blog about it!  


I am going to continue to share my journey if you guys will help hold me accountable!  I have not done much to change my eating habits yet, but I have started drinking WAY more water than my bladder can handle so that will come in time!  Right now I just need you guys to help me keep on going.  I need you to remind me that there is light at the end of this fat girl tunnel and that I hopefully will come out being a little bit lighter on the scale and hopefully running my first 5k by the time I'm 30!  


Thank you all in advance! 


Until Next Time....