What do you blog about when you have so much stuff on your mind.....

What do you blog about when you have so much stuff on your mind that you cant choose one topic......... How do you choose just one topic at a time....How do you narrow it down....

So, Ive been going through a lot lately and haven't really talked much about it.  I just don't really know how to express it....I'm stressed...I'm exhausted....I'm so tired that I can't sleep.....

I don't even know where to start...lets see....

My grandpa was in the hospital for over a week and is in failing health due to COPD.....he is home now and is doing better but the reality of it all is that he will never get better because of it.  Since Cady was born we have been visiting with him and my grandma every Tuesday and have grown closer to them than we have ever been and it breaks my heart to see him like this....

My Mom has been under a lot of stress lately because of her dad being in the hospital and going back and forth to be with him and my grandma....then on top of it all she gets pneumonia....AGAIN....and then one of my siblings did something pretty stupid.....more stress......I have been trying to be there for her as much as possible because I don't want her to get sick and stressed and exhausted.....but it doesnt seem to be working because she got sick and stressed and exhausted....

I have a huge problem of not being able to say no to things...and I LOVE to volunteer and help out at my church but I don't seem to know when to say enough is enough.  I keep taking on more and more and since I'm sure if you have read my previous blogs you know how much of a procrastinator I am....here's an example for ya...I have known for over a month that I would be doing the sermon at church this morning because Pastor is on vacation, so guess when I wrote my sermon....last night at around 8pm....

I'm getting increasingly worried about our financial situation.  My unemployment is ending and the bills seem to be getting larger and I did the math and unless I get a job that I make over $15 an hour I would be wasting my time working because I would be paying most of my paycheck to daycare and I would also loose my payment for watching my niece Emma during the day....Its pretty much a lose/lose situation....Either I work and spend all my money on daycare and have no extra money or I stay home with the kids and we have no extra money.....I hate money.....It's funny I say that because I forgot to mention that I have a serious shopping addiction and that could be one of the reasons why we don't have any money.....

Oh yeah...did I mention that almost every weekend since like January there has been something going on that I have committed too....
Jan 22: cheer and wrestling...same time..
Jan 29: cheer-and my sisters 16th bday weekend in Grand Rapids.
Jan 30: Sisters bday party
Feb 5: cheer and wrestling...same time..
Feb 6: Kzoo Baby Expo: I had a booth with a friend and her Company...all day thing...
Feb 12: wrestling
Feb 13: bday celebration for cousins
Feb 27: dress shopping with my sister in law for her wedding
Mar 3-5: wrestling state championship
Mar 19: baby shower and bday party
Mar 26: bday party
Apr 3: bridal shower
Apr 16: bday dinner
Apr 24: Easter
April 29: Chicago trip
April 30: wedding anniversary
May 7: mothers day dinner
May 8: mothers day
May 14: Vendor Blender I put on at our church
May 28-30: Memorial Day activities
June 3: graduation
June 4: pole vault state championship
June 10: sister in law rehearsal dinner
June 11: sister in law wedding
June 12: wedding brunch
June 18: fathers day activities and open house
June 19: fathers day
June 25: brothers open house

............Im sure you get the point now......

ugh....I need a vacation.....wait....I spent all the money at Meijer, Walmart and Target so we cant afford one now!  Thanks for listening to my venting session tonight.....if you even survived the first paragraph since its so long....

Until next time.....