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I am Steph! I am a 30-something mom and wife. I am Bi-Polar. I am an Autism mom. I work full time outside the home. I overcommit myself every single day. I sometimes wonder how my husband puts up with me on a day to day basis. I have 2 children, one neuro-typical and one not so neuro-typical. I am a hot mess. I am Steph.

Thursday, February 18, 2016

Autism is Annoying.

Have I ever told you how fun having a child with Autism is? 
Oh yeah, because it’s not fun at all! 

Let me give you some background.  Nathan was ‘Google’ diagnosed at 2 years old by me, educationally diagnosed at 2 1/2 by the Intermediate School District and medically diagnosed at 3 by a Neuropsychologist.  I noticed quite early on that he was a bit delayed than what “they” said he should be at.  Who is “they” btw?? So I turned to Google because that is what everyone does and took some online quizzes and came up with Autism.  Who knew that my googling would actually turn out to be correct this time!  Once we finally had some answers it was time to move on and start the life changing process of being an Autism family.  My husband and I both jumped in feet first and got him the early intervention that he needed.  Well, lets’ fast forward to now….2/18/2016 – Nathan is now 5 ½ and has grown leaps and bounds since his diagnosis, but guess what? He is still Autistic and it is still frustrating and annoying.

I love my son.  I don’t even really need to say that because it should just be a given, I am his mom of course I love him and wouldn’t trade him for the world, but I will not sugarcoat it when I say that Autism is annoying.  In the beginning of our process we were so busy just dealing with things to make sure Nathan can succeed in life.  We were so busy with transitioning our family from a typical one to an Autism one.  We were so busy just trying to get through the day to day routine and schedule that I’ve never really had a chance to think about how annoying and frustrating Autism is.  Not only to me but to Nathan too!  I can’t imagine what is going through his head when he is having a sensory meltdown and can’t calm himself down.  But I can tell you exactly what is going through mine: “Seriously NOT again!! I just needed to run into the store for one thing and now he is losing it in the checkout lane at Meijer….!”  I have to quickly remind myself that something as simple as going into a store can be the most stressful thing he will have to deal with that day…but it doesn’t make it any less annoying!

Autism is annoying because it causes my son to do weird things like having to roll his blue jean pant legs up before he can wear them.  And don’t forget, they must be rolled up 5 times, NOT 4! No matter how cold outside or how dorky he looks he refuses to wear any pants unless they are folded up right now….
Autism is annoying because it causes my son to become so frustrated that he starts to lash out at me.  I can’t tell you how hard it is not to push him out of my face when he is so close to me and screaming that I can feel his breathe in my mouth. 
Autism is annoying because there isn’t a right or wrong way to deal with it.  What worked or works for one child may not work for yours.                                                                                                                                                           
Autism is annoying because it makes me selfish and then guilty when all I can do is complain about how much it is affecting my life, when really I have no idea how it is affecting anything.  Sometimes I forget that I am not actually the one living with it.  I am the mother of a child who has no idea that he is different, he just knows that he doesn’t like it and doesn’t know how to deal with it.                                         
Autism is annoying because it will never go away.  It will always be there staring at you, smiling at you, laughing at you, crying with you.

I could go on and on about how annoying it is right now but that would take all day and then I would be annoyed that I wasted a whole day blogging instead of accomplishing anything.  So to end for today I’ll just leave you with 3 words.

Autism Is Annoying.

Until Next Time…
Do you think your child may have Autism Spectrum Disorder and don't know what you should do next?  Check out this link for some helpful tips. http://www.nationalautismresources.com/i-think-my-child-has-autism-what-do-i-do.html